I just got an email from my sis, telling that the youngest cousin is died! These few months were all a real mess. She was found to have tumor in her brain and it was already too late to do anything for the poor girl. All what her parents did to keep her alive only ended up suffering her in her last months of life. It was a year ago when I saw her for the last time and I just wished from the bottom of my heart to see her one more time.
Life and death are loosing their meaning to me! It's no more painful or sorrowful. I was thinking about it the whole last night, without even shedding a tear. Death seems a kind of traveling to another city full of adventure, except you're not alone when you get there. You've got plenty of acquaintance there probably waiting for you! Who knows! Never been there after all...
Time is loosing its meaning as well. One year used to be a long long time before, but now is just an interval between life and death (just as what happened to my cousin). I'm starting to realize what my grandma means when she says she doesn't know how she became 80 years old! Do I know how I passed my teenage days?! I don't even know how I could live alone for 4 damn years! How I could not meet my relatives for 7 years. I just can't remember!
We're living for ONCE people! ONCE is all the chance I've got to live the way I won't regret, and the way my ONCE is finished is as easy as a heartbeat can't be heard anymore. ONCE is all you've got to be with your beloved as long as you want. No matter how far they are from you. ONCE is all the time you've got to be good, no more chances. Really!
Life and death are loosing their meaning to me! It's no more painful or sorrowful. I was thinking about it the whole last night, without even shedding a tear. Death seems a kind of traveling to another city full of adventure, except you're not alone when you get there. You've got plenty of acquaintance there probably waiting for you! Who knows! Never been there after all...
Time is loosing its meaning as well. One year used to be a long long time before, but now is just an interval between life and death (just as what happened to my cousin). I'm starting to realize what my grandma means when she says she doesn't know how she became 80 years old! Do I know how I passed my teenage days?! I don't even know how I could live alone for 4 damn years! How I could not meet my relatives for 7 years. I just can't remember!
We're living for ONCE people! ONCE is all the chance I've got to live the way I won't regret, and the way my ONCE is finished is as easy as a heartbeat can't be heard anymore. ONCE is all you've got to be with your beloved as long as you want. No matter how far they are from you. ONCE is all the time you've got to be good, no more chances. Really!
The way people think about life and death is just the matter of where their viewpoint is! When your life is to stick to your house and enjoy the neighborhood, you get so used to your everyday that even thinking of leaving the house behind and leave for an unknown land is too painful. You know it WILL happen someday but you'd rather ignore it .If your life is to travel around, (even if you've never chosen it to be so) the whole earth seems like your home. You start feeling more comfortable with leaving everything behind and stepping ahead.
And if you could imagine yourself somewhere in the middle of universe, then earth and sky and here snd there and past and present and future, ALL are just imaginations!
Isn't it beautiful?
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Sorry to hear the News.
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